So I must say it really doesn't feel like Halloween. Luckyily Garrett and Ashlee are doing the Haunted Hayride event so at least there is some Halloween spirit. We rarely get many trick or treaters anyway, but it just seems like Halloween came quickly and quietly this year. Megan went to Marcs to help pass out candy and they get alot of trick or treaters. I had a pretty lazy day, but feel like I got some good rest today. I feel more rested and my face doesn't seem quite so numb today.Ashlee is still pretty stressed about her accident. I know shes worried and I've tried to let her know its out of her hands now and to relax. It was an accident and we will get through this. I can't believe tomorrow is November 1st already! Soon we will have snow on the ground. HATE the thought of that. Also gonna have to find out the car situation for Ashlee as she may have to drive the van for a bit. I can't believe in 2 months Garrett will be 15 and can drive. Maybe no more drivers in this family. Enough. Clocks turn back one hour tonight and it will be dark out even earlier now. Days already seem so short. Guess I'll veg out the rest of the night since its already 7pm.

So today is one of those good day/bad days. I had a good day up until about 3:30 then it went down hill from there. This am, I went with Chuck to Auburn, got a few odds & ends for the house, and just got to be out. Came home around 1:30 and Meg was on her way home from college and was going to go to south paris to visit her work, so I rode to my work with her to visit with everyone at my office. It was an EXCELLENT visit and I had a great time visiting with everyone. They treated me to 2 beautiful baskets of goodies and just the warmth from everyone was very nice. I really love those guys. Everyone who was there, thanks so much for the little things that you all do, as they mean the most. While I was at the CareerCenter, I got a call from Ashlee she had been in a car accident. Luckily no injuries, and seems to be on the moderate side as far as how bad it was. Ashlee and Tyler hit head on in the school parking lot. Not clear who, if either was really at fault. I hope it will all come out in the wash. I know Tylers air bag deployed and Ashlee damaged the radiator and the whole front end of her car. The police did come and we had to file a report and report it to insurance too. Garrett was with Ashlee and he got a little seat belt rash but luckily both him and Ash were wearing their seatbelts. Tyler drove his car off and we hauled Ashlees away. Needless to say, it has been an exciting day. Dave is pretty stressed and tomorrow is opening day for hunting, so he is hunting for the day. As for me, I'm looking at a quiet mundane day, and right now that is looking pretty darn good!!!!!

Well, today was an eventful day to say the least. I nearly burned my home down. Since my memory is so bad, I did something that could have had terrible results. I cooked some boiled eggs this am, but the unfortunate part is I forgot I was cooking them, my sister Kathy showed up and I left with her for the day. Needless to say, when I arrived back home around 2:30, the house was filled with smoke and the eggs were burned, exploded and black on my stove. The pot was pitch black and red hot. I am so lucky something worse didn't happen. I realize I will have to be much more careful with my memory. Dave says no more cooking for me. I will say it was nice to be out today with Kathy. We had a nice little afternoon, I got some paperwork sent to the insurance company, Kathy took me to Auburn and we ate lunch at Longhorns and we went to Mardens. Didn't spend more than $20, but had a fun time while I was out. When I got home, I cleaned up my kitchen mess, and then Uncle Norm came over to visit for a while, and then Janie Lucas showed up for a visit. It was good to say hi to Unc. Dave got home shortly after and those two chatted while Janie and I had a chat. She looks good, her spirits seem well, but she looks tired and drained from the toll the chemo takes on ones body. I so hope this treatment goes smoother for her than her first. She has a good attitude and has a lot of support so I hope she feels better soon. I have been a little shaky today, not really sure why, and my face feels weird, like numb but I don't feel bad or sick so I am going to wait til am and see how I feel. Its not like I feel sick or bad, just like a numbness on my face which could be the drugs. Megan is coming home for a bit tonight, she went to a home party and is going to come home for the night after so it will be nice to see her later. She has to be at UMF for 1 class tomorrow then she'll be home for the weekend. Guess that sums up my exciting day, and thank God I still have a home.

Had an outing yesterday, Chip had to do some sales calls in Portsmouth NH so I rode to NH with him just to get out of the house. It was nice just being out, but I did get tired. Its better than just sitting at home though which is what I think may happen today. Dave went for his massage yesterday which he said was nice. He said the lady that gave him a massage was like 70 though and I laughed at that. I think today will just be a quiet day which is ok with me as I could use a lazy quiet day. In the mood for scrapbooking today so think that will be on the agenda today. Also have to call my work to get a few things regarding my disability started and/or straightened out. Wanna get in touch with the girls at work as I would like to spend maybe 1/2 day over there just to hang out. Maybe on day next week I could ride over with Paula(Marc mom) and one of the girls could bring me home after lunch. If you girls read this, how does that sound for one day? Ashlee has been busy with the Haunted Hay Ride. That is coming up this weekend and she has been working hard on that. She had a frustrating few days as she has a lot on her plate and she feels overwhelmed. She says I'm being hard on her, I don't think I am, but I will try to back off a little. It just seems like she is gone all the time and really doesn't have time for home. I forget so much that Ashlee gets frustrated with me very easily. I admit I forget ALOT, but she has very little patience so that is a bad combination for her and I. We will just have to work on it a little bit more. It will work out.

A very good day. Napped the early morning, but left at 1:00 with Meg, Paula (Marc's mom), and Matt (Marc's brother) to the chinese auction sponsored by the Social Learning Center where Matt attends. It started at 1:00 and we didn't get home until almost 6. We all won something too which was cool. Megan won 2 rounds of golf (that she'll give to Marc), Paula won a nights stay at the Fireside Inn in Auburn, and a gift certificate for a bar-b-que place in Auburn. I won a $20 gift certificate to Macs Seafood and a $100 cash bill. I spent $20 on tickets and came home with $120 in prizes so I did very well. It was nice to be out and about as usual. I am a little shaky again today, so I will mention to Dr. E when I see her. Not really bad, but enough to irritate me. I have an appt for a CT scan tomorrow. I'm hoping for good results. Hopefully there has been some noticeable reduction in swelling and tumor. Again wait and see. Hopefully the day goes by quick as some days are longer than others. Since I'll be out and about and Dave will be home with me the day should go by quickly. Getting a little tired now, so guess I'll head to bed.

Went to Chatham yesterday to visit with Kathy and she made fish and corn chowder. The fish was excellent and hit the spot. I did get a little tired by afternoon, but slept good last night. I missed Kaelyn because she was in school, but she called me to tell me she missed me and next time I need to come when she is home so she can visit with me. She is such a cutie!She has a soccer game on Saturday that I'd love to go to, but don't know if I can get there or not. I hat not being able to drive. Technically i can still drive, but not sure if I trust myself. I don't even dare to go to Tiltons. Chuck is going to pick me up later today so I can go to the bank, and if we have time he may run me over to the CareerCenter so I can pick up some miscellaneous things. I am not sure I will be able to get back to work, so I guess I can bring some stuff home. My mouth and blisters are getting better. My taste buds are just starting to come back so I can eat some regular food now. Brady & Bailey are driving me crazy right now. They were accustomed to me not being home and they were fine at night when we got home. Now that I am home everyday, they are very "needy" as in they want to be with me ALL the time. And thy need me to pet them and be in the same room as them. Baileys nervous energy is driving me crazy! She won't let me out of her sight. Guess thats all for now........

Can't believe this weather! It is fall but feels like early winter. I like the cool weather but this is a bit early. Also, it is dark out still at 6 am which stinks too. I hate it when its still dark out when you wake up.To top it off, we turn the clocks back soon too so the days are definitely getting shorter. I was itchy this morning, so I think a lot of the peeling is getting near the end. My skin is still dry and flaky but getting there now. I get to see Kathy today. Shes making fish chowder for lunch so will get to eat lunch with her, Dad and the kids. She made a corn chowder for dad since he doesn't like fish. I'm surprised he agreed to lunch with us, but he was all for it. I worked on scrapbooking some yesterday. I completed one page with Breast Cancer as the theme of the page and I think it came out pretty good. I had some pics from the walk on my camera that I printed on my printer that I was able to use. I am going to do a separate book for the breast cancer/walk. I have to be in the mood to scrapbook and I was yesterday. Usually once I get started I do ok, its just the beginning that slows me down. My mouth is still messed up, but getting better. It would be nice if I could have a little bit of taste. I can tell texture and some taste, but mostly everything tastes the same. I am hungry.